My husband, Chuck, passed away very unexpectedly on March 1, 2017. I wasn't going to write about in here, but it didn't feel right to try to keep on blogging as though my heart were still whole.
The preceding 12 months had been horrible for both of us; I lost my sister on March 16, 2016, then Chuck was diagnosed with cancer in June. He battled it with chemo and radiation and he won. In December, he was pronounced cancer free. The chemo took a huge toll on him, taking him down to just about skin and bones, but he was getting stronger with each day that passed in January and February. But on the morning of March 1st, I couldn't get him to wake up. His heart, his enormous, kind, loving, giving heart had just stopped. I know it was absolutely painless for him because he looked so peaceful. That's what I tell myself anyway...
I'm still having a hard time truly believing that he is gone. Everything looks the same...and yet nothing is the same. The animals and I are trying as best we can to adjust to a world without our center...if one can ever "adjust" to something like that. Right now, I'm just trying to take it one day at a time.
I hope everyone who celebrates Easter is having a good one. I've been horribly ill for the past four days, so no Easter eggs or chocolate bunnies for me. (Not necessarily a bad thing). I'm starting to feel better now, but whatever this thing was that I had really knocked me for a loop. It's impossible not to feel hopeful at Easter though.
Several days ago I spotted the first of the ladybugs. I was really surprised because it's been pretty cold here for April. Last night our low temperature was 30 degrees F. Happily, I saw more ladybugs today so I guess they're doing all right. This is the earliest they've hatched; usually the hatch date is around the middle of May.
And some other Wildings, big and little, who kindly share their forest with me:
"To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded." Ralph Waldo Emerson
A Young Steller's Jay
Common to high altitude forests all over the west
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Our task must be to free ourselves...by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature and its beauty. ~~ Albert Einstein
June Is Adopt a Cat Month
But, there are always strays who need a loving home - so don't shop, ADOPT! Click the photo for helpful tips on adopting.
If they breathe, they live. If they live, they feel. If they feel, they love. If they love, they are aware. If they are aware, they have a soul. ~ Williams
I love cats because I enjoy my home and, little by little, they become its visible soul ~ Jean Cocteau (That's Malcolm O'Mewy on the chair)
Feed the Hungry
I think we are bound to, and by, Nature. We may want to deny this connection and try to believe we control the external world, but every time there's a snowstorm or drought we know our fate is tied to the world around us. ~~ Alice Hoffman
What I'm Reading Now:
Give a Child a Book
Books are the quietest and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors and the most patient of teachers.
Charles W. Eliot
A person who collects or is fond of books. Also, a person who immediately feels safe, happy, even euphoric, when holding a favorite book.
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Where there is tea there is hope - Pinero
Boulder Bay, Big Bear Lake
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Lake Gregory, Crestline
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A Favorite Quote
"I don't want life to imitate art; I want life to BE art." Carrie Fisher
Climb the mountains and get their good tidings. Nature's peace will flow into you as sunshine flows into trees. ~ John Muir, from "The California Mountains"
I'm three-quarters Native American (Oglala Sioux and Cherokee), and one-quarter Northern Italian. I live in a little cottage with my furry "children" in a beautiful mountain forest where we enjoy daily visits from the little wild creatures. I love animals (you probably guessed), books, photography, tall trees, clear lakes, rain, snow, tea, the moon, and creating all kinds of art.